Female Thanatos?

most likely, yeah,..hahaha! whenever i see myself as the protagonist, thats how i see thanatos, hahaha!

I want to be alive

Ive been reading this book since last year, and to be honest, im a really slow and lazy reader, anyhow, the title is American Gods, havent finished it yet though. It is a story a bout a normal man that got stuck in a war of modern and old gods. His name is Shadow (Baldur/Baldr), he was in prison for 3 years (i think?) and had been pardoned, hes a good guy, and i kinda see myself in him, you see, he’s the type of man who would do anything for his wife, and kind of laid back making him the boring type of guy. He would do anything once he set his mind into, he’s not that faithful to any god and only honors his promises and his friends. Shadow had a wife, but unfortunately, she died in a car accident (I do not intend to tell her death story coz its painful), Laura, after her death, she came back to life and saved Shadow many times. Some time in his journey, she met Shadow in a graveyard somewhere remote and they talked about stuff, she said, he is alive but she dont know if hes dead either. She meant, Shadow is alive, humanly, but hes dead in terms of personality, he dont surprise Laura, never give her hard times, all he did was to follow and do what she wants, making her bored of him, giving her reasons to cheat on him, and so, she did. Anyhow, Shadow had a friend, Wednesday (Voten/Odin/All-Father), hes a god, he is witty, and the leader, he died. LOL, but yeah, it saddened me. Currently, I am now on Shadows vigil for Woden,..I want to be alive.

Oh, and, im playing this game, Persona 3, its awesome! I just love stories that involves gods, 7 deadly sins and anything disturbing and has conspiracy about the government and everything fighting against who has all the power. Currently on level 51 of the tower, to tell you honestly, im getting worked up by their shit, i mean, i love being stuck on the current level! why? AWESOME EXP!!!! LOL! but yeah, its not good being stuck. Im playing as a girl, i named her Aika, and, IF ONLY! I would hit on the girl dorm mates, theyre cute, LOL, especially Fuuka (I have something about quiet girls) and, yeah, the guy velvet room helper is cute, hes adorable, everytime we go on a date,..LOL! look at me fangirl-ing…Anyhow, i also started playing tactics ogre, stopped 4 scenes (coz imma playing persona and sims and NBA, yes, im playing a lot instead of getting a job) and harvest moon: Hero of leaf valley…im almost winter and, yeah, its good, just hate the selling stuff, coz i have to go shop to shop just to sell my shits.

And watched avengers, LOL, kinda late but anyways, Hulk is cool, didnt expect him to be that awesome (expected too much from good ol’ cap’n and thor), Iron Man is given (hes always awesome, :insert-the-drapes-part-here:), Thor, he speaks cool, with that, manners and some puns he used (“He’s adopted”, “You humans are puny”) and the brofist, LOL! Cap’n America? i didnt like him that much, only the;

Cap’n America: Hulk, (pause) Smash.

Hulk: *Looks at him* (Grins)

yeh, pretty much it.

JOB HUNT

“While your qualifications are impressive, we regret that we are unable to extend an offer to you”

- Certain-company-i-applied

so sad, i hope the other companies would reply and ask for an interview <sobs>

i want to go someplace

where I can be at peace and no high-grade technology, or just a place near the beach with green grass around the dirt part of the land, with a tree as a shade, a swing, a table, and a dozen of bottles of iced tea or soda…I want to go to a place with strong wind breeze with the smell of the sea, a comfy bed when I get tired while walking on the sandy beach.

I want to have a study with 3 computers, two with dual monitor (work station for me and my girl), and one single monitor for gaming. I want lots of shelves where we can put books and toys (i’m starting to collect toys again), a sofa set and a small fridge to keep drinks.

I want a black or white car with high-end setup, with low spoilers, shiny mags, a kinda-huge-exhaust, carbon hood and trunk, and nitrous. I wanna learn how to drift and race.

I guess there are a lot of things I wanted to do and wanted to have. and im starting to know it just today.

EDIT: oh and, I wanna make a movie, a series, a cake, and a chocolate sculpture (and give it to my girl and watch her if shes goin to eat it or keep it that way…LOL!)

idk whats hard about rigging, it seems pretty basic to me.

and yeah, every time i rig characters, it’s always the same, i cant see art in it, i cant find anything special about it. i feel like it’s so f*cking lame!!!